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Monday, September 10, 2007

32nd Month :)

*waves* to minnie! Look, i'm blogging, be sure to read it and tag me :P

It's been 32 months since Fuzzy darling and i got together, hmm, not long enough. We don't celebrate every month but just nice he's free the whole day so we planned to go Botanic's Orchid Garden, BUT, it rained and rained and rained :( So disappointed and upset by the gloomy weather, the trip was something that we both looked forward to for so long, yet didn't get to go. So we went Magic Wok for lunch and Taka to shop for some people's presents. Wore my new shoes and i've got blisters!! Painful and sore feet almost the whole day, booo.

Sunday 9 sept
Had captain's ball in the afternoon, the Young Adults Competition held by my church. Weather was scorching hot and i'm pretty badly burnt on my shoulders and face. My nose bridge burns easily cause i've got a sharp nose haha. It hurts now if i wriggle it. I don't mind getting burnt, i just don't want my skin to peel !! I have a backache, grow muscles grow!

School Woes
Yes, time to grumble and sulk again. As usual, i'm dreading school, there's just too many things going on and i can't seem to focus. It's already week6, what am i waiting for? I haven't done my resume which is due on friday, haven't design my grandstand roof due on thurs, haven't done my whole pile of tutorials. It's been 2 weeks since i've got my FYP notes and i haven't even started calculating. Sheet i hate myself. What's wrong with me!?

Random Thoughts
I just want to proclaim, it's not my fault that i am skinny, it's not my fault that i can't grow fat, it's not my fault at all. So stop saying that i am skinny or i look SCARY because you don't know how it hurts me, how it tears me apart. Stop telling me that everytime you see me, it might seem funny to you, but it makes me wanna cry. If you think i look scary then just scram, go away, stay far away from me. Stop treating me like some alien because i am not one. If you think by screaming how scary i look is being kind to me, let me tell you, you are so freaking wrong, you're only making me lose my confidence, that is neither encouraging nor edifying at all. Even though everytime i act as though i'm fine with you teasing me, the truth is i'm aching badly inside. And yesterday, i wanted so much to cry, good thing Fuzzy Darling was there to comfort me. Thanks darling.

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