[ my rainbow world ]

Saturday, November 17, 2007

words from my heart

God my shelter, my refuge, i seek your presence now, i want to hide in your big arms, i want to cry and not care about anyone nor anything else except you God. God, am i not supposed to show as much care and concern i have for loved ones, why does it now seem wrong and unreasonable to do so? People get suffocated and annoyed , but why? Don't they need to be cared for and be showed concern? I would love people caring for me, showing that i matter to them, as much as they can do so. That is why i do the same to others, telling them how much they matter to me, not wanting to disturb them but waiting till they are free so show them some concern, am i wrong God?

God, i don't know what to say or do anymore. To not care nor bother, is just not my type. God, would you show the same love and concern like how i show others? Am i choking them, am i bugging them too much, tell me. Do unto others, what you want others to do unto you, that's exactly what i'm doing, or am i expecting too much again God?

No matter what, to all my dears out there, i would never get sick of your love and concern for me, so please, show me as much care as you can offer me, even if it's just a little, i'll be glad to show all the concern i have for my loved ones. I'm not asking for anything in return, just acknowledgement, instead of being misunderstood.

ok. i should really just refrain from caring too much. it'll only drag me down. so yes, i'm learning and still trying hard to overcome this, God says do not worry, i shall not worry, do not be anxious, i shall not be anxious. i won't bother now. add oil ruru, you can do it, God provides strength!

Phil 4:6
Do not be anxious in anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God, and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

*~[...FisHieZ & ruRu...]~* lost herself @ 1:34 PM